What to say, what to say???

Ever had one of those times where you just KNOW you need to call someone, or write to them, but when you sit down and hold that phone in your hand, or are staring at the paper, playing with the pen in your hand, (yes, some of us still use REAL mail :o), though not as often as I would like to.) . . . you just aren't really sure what the heck you're supose to say? 

So, I started 3 different letters, and 2 blog entries, and then packed it in for the weekend and just said screw it.  The only time anything thoughtful came to mind, was around 11:30pm, when I was attempting to ignore all the thoughts zipping thru my head, trying to get completely exhausted so I could sleep.

One thing I realized, is that I still need to properly introduce my family.  Jason and I chatted, and understanding that protecting the family is thee most important, and then weighing what info to actually include, we'll include all the kids names.  We've been thru nutty "safety experiences", like my ex harassing us and using his second wife's mother's money to try to threaten us and the boys...and that was all a bunch of crap.    We've experienced being in a foreign country where we, as a military family, were big targets - and we were followed by 3 middle-eastern Men, who turned in a fairly deserted part of a shopping plaza, to follow us --TAKING OUR PICTURES all the while!  We left, and went along the sidewalk, thru an alley, and into another store before they finally stopped with the cameras and went away.  THAT was freaky!!! (especially since this was October of '04...and we had been warned of recent threats to US military in our area at the time)...so it was a higher freak out factor for us.  But all was well, we soon thereafter learned to relax our safety measures back to a healthy level that allowed us to ENJOY our lives.

NOW, my goal is to remember our lives so I can share it with the kids down the road, while also sharing with our family and friends.  Knowing which kid I'm talking about, withOUT confusion, is pretty important.  Except for Zacky, I can't say "R" or "C" did this, since I've got R-C-R-C-Z. 

With that said, I will take a day or two to dwell on how the heck to pick up with us in the middle of an ongoing life with many, so you feel like you aren't completely Lost in the Sauce (though it's a really tasty place to be.)  Got any specific info you want me to be sure to include, just ask.  You'll either get an interesting answer, or a little "eh-hem, I choose not to answer" answer.  Either way, I'll try not to ignore anything specific.

------- Can I just toss out a disclaimer now that occasionally my spelling is crap (yeah for spell checker, which I seem to need more and more each year.)  Also -- if I ever seem to vanish, feel free to drop me a line to snatch me back to cyber space reality.  I need a slap-slap wake up call on occasion these days.

Soon to follow (I hope) -- Family intro... grease the gears so the brain is ticking.